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Name: Karolin
Country: Sweden
Metro: Gothenburg
Birthday: 2/6/1992
Gender: Female
Interests: Listening to all sorta of music, writing poems, hanging with my best friends, chemistry and bio (yes i know haha) oh, beating ppl who are mean (I don't REALLY do that, I just feel like doing it sometimes ´=P)
Expertise: no matter how hard I try I always seem to manage to have my cell phone bill at about 60-70 dollars a month; trying to get it lower since I pay it myself. oh and it's non-tax free either!!
Message: message me
AIM:  xtrasweetlaidy
MSN: caroliinolsson_@hotmail.com
Yahoo:  tinince@yahoo.com
Member Since:
12/18/2004
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| Aite I know I haven't written in a long time, so I felt it was time ;D
Well, it's been so long since I was in Korea. Think about it everyday =/ gah, I'm going to start crying soon but anyways, life's good, 2 tests a week, everyweek, and me being very busy otherwise it's not working so good for me. I can say right now that I actually flunked my bio test, which totally sucks, but anyways.
<3
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| I seriously don't know where to begin. I'm just going to write here like it's my diary, and that no one maybe wont read it, I don't care.
Well there is a thing that I've been.. hiding from myself for a while, but today I actually told myself, and a friend about it, and that made me feel like writing it here. I'm afraid. Really afraid. afraid of something I shouldn't be afraid of. and that is love.
not the love from my friends, or parents, but the love from a guy. the first time I was really in love, and I had to leave it behind me, putting a lid ontop of my feelings. Sometimes that lid opens a little, and pour out the feelings, and then I just put the lid back on. i also had a realtionship with another guy, here in sweden, and it was wonderful, and i loved him, and he loved me, but then he dumped me and I was left with hundreds of question, still unanswered, and i'm afraid of asking them because i'm afraid of what the answer might be, and that's why I can't ask him. then during the summer i jumped into a relationship but quickly drew myself back and realized I wasn't ready for it, left him, and moved on. now i've jumped into something, again. but not a relationship, but sortof. he likes me, i like him, and we both know it, but i dont want to get into a relationship, and i don't know how to tell him that, because i love him but im afraid of losing him if i tell him. but i'm scared of it. relationships. being left with questions unanswered, having to leave him and never see him again, knowing that that love can never be answered again, and the fear of jumping into a relationship not being ready. sol what should i do?
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| School dance last night. I haven't had that much fun in months! It was so darn fun omg. I danced almost the whole time; with Viktor, Kalle, Henrik, Ivan, Philip, and more =D and now my feet are hurting =/ so long suckers <3 | | |
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Well, I never thought grades could get to me the way they have done. See, on tuesday, I have french, math, and Social Stud, so I had to go to school, even if I was sick, and so I did. I went to school with a fever, because I didn't want to miss anything or come behind. Then on wednesday I realized I had Social Studies again, and I also had Swedish, so I went to school with a fever, again. Now my mom, somehow, found out about this, and forced me to stay home today, but hey, I know dad's leaving late, so right after he's gone, I'm going to go to school. I know I'll miss Social Stud, and maybe a bit of french too, but at least I'll be there for chemistry, my first math class, then swedish, and then my second math class =D so yeah, life's good, though I'm still not feeling well. Everyones like sick now. Seriously.. but its starting to become autumn/winter, so I suppose that's logical ;D
So long lovers <3
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riight, I've changed, a lot since I moved back to Sweden.both in good and bad ways. but something that has never changed is the way I will always miss my home. Sadly, everytime I move, I feel like the place I just lived at was my home. Except for once, and that was Korea. My two first years I was just missing Sweden. Almost all the time. I was having an awesome time, really, but I missed Sweden and everytime I went there and had to go back, I wished I could've stayed. But my third year is one of the most unforgetable years of my life. When I went to Sweden during christmas I was actually missing korea, even though I only had 2½weeks in Sweden.
See, first I live on a farm. Life was totally cool there. We had the most awesome pets, and lived the perfect live. Then I moved away from there when I was 7, to gothenburg, and then I realized how great I just had it. Then I moved to Korea, and I realized how much my life and my friends in gothneburg had meant for me. Then I moved back ot Sweden, back to gothenburg, but to another place, made once again a new life, new school, new friends, and all I do now is miss Korea. I'm losing contact with most of them and I don't want that to happen. And worst of all is that.. the life I had there is gone, because hardly any people are left there, from the ones that meant the most to me. Only Jihyun Sunkyu.. and Darin <3. everyone else has left. arg I don't know why I'm writing this here, it's not like anyone's going to read it anyways.
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